Tuesday, January 17, 2012

silas benjamin

[27 week ultrasound]

we decided about halfway through my pregnancy with my daughter that her name was going to be "olive evangeline" (much to the shock of many friends and family members who i'm sure thought we were nuts!)  i was so in love with olive's name, there just wasn't any hesitancy or second thoughts after we put it together.

this time around, no such easy experience. boys names are hard! matt and i had a much harder time finding names we BOTH liked for this boy than we ever did for olive. and the list of names we could agree on was very small compared to the list of girls names we adore.

we read the list of names we agreed on to olive to get her valuable 2 year old's perspective. it was important to us that she like the baby's name, and could pronounce it fairly easily. she immediately liked "silas." and she's called my baby bump that ever since, and will tell anyone who asks about her baby brother that his name IS "baby silas." i've held back announcing that "silas" is definitely this baby's name, because i haven't had that romantic, "i know this is the one" feeling about the name like i did with olive's, but somehow over the last few months he's just grown into his name and we all call him by name now.

luckily the middle name was a piece of cake. because silas is the first boy grandchild to be born with my husband's family's last name, we wanted to give him matt's dad's name. i think silas and benjamin go together very sweetly.


almost 30 weeks over here. other than having a weird case of food poisoning last week that knocked me off my feet for a few days, i've been feeling extremely well. sleeping well, not too sore, and enough energy still to go for long walks and do some organizational work around the house to get ready for this little boy's arrival.

it's coming up so fast, that i freak myself out thinking about it too much, because thinking about what's happening so soon in great detail makes me feel extremely unprepared and more than a little frightened. maybe it's a blessing to be too busy to think too much about it right now. when i was pregnant with olive i had ample time to overthink everything, and STILL all my carefully made plans got thrown to the wayside, and nothing turned out the way i imagined it would.

i'm trying to just roll with the punches this time. no labor and delivery plans, other than getting baby boy here safely and healthily. and no expectations as to what our new little man is going to be like. it was a huge shock to me realizing that newborn olive was just by nature a rather cranky, un-cuddly little person and not the snuggly, content newborn i had been expecting. so this time around - NO expectations. i'm looking forward to learning all about this guy's own individual little personality and attitude after he's born.